A sweet word from God...

Lately, I'm disturbed with myself. I am becoming increasingly paranoid about forgetting words when I am on stage. The last few times I've had an event I have forgotten the words at least once or twice...and many times they are words to my own songs! Normally, I am very at ease on stage and it's a party for me! Now, I've got a mental block that somewhere along the way I'm gonna go blank!

What do I attribute this loss of memory to? Who knows? I seem to do it through out the day, too, not just on stage. I wander into a room and forget why I went in there... I'm talking to a person and totally forget the subject we were on...AAAHHHH!!! On stage, it's embarrassing and totally unprofessional (in my opinion). :) However...having the words posted in front of my blank-minded face is equally unprofessional, so what do I do? I KNOW these songs! It's like I'll forget one word and then I either make something up or slur over it I suppose. Quite embarrassing. (I'm sure I should not be revealing these little secrets but, hey...who cares!)

So, Sunday morning I am at a church doing a sound check and practicing when I realize I keep getting lyrics mixed up to one of the hymns from my new album. I'm totally hacked now and starting to stress and doubt myself and the lyrics. This is ridiculous. Now I'm trying to scribble down the song on a scrap piece of paper to lay somewhere on the keyboard. So at about 10 minutes before the service starts I'm sitting in the back and I decide to read the Bible from my phone. What a novel idea. :) I click on the daily reading section and it gives a few old testament scriptures with a bunch of who begat whos...and then I scroll down to Luke 12. Now, I was supposed to just read the whole chapter but in my blond-washed brain I'm thinking, "scroll down to Luke 12:12." I scroll down and guess what it says? "For the Holy Spirit will teach you in that very hour what you are to say..."

My eyes started to water with tears. I don't care what context it was supposed to be written in, that message was FOR me FROM God! I could not believe it. All I could think of was just amazement that he cared enough to give me the boost I needed for something as small as forgotten words. I was speechless... and that doesn't happen often. All I could say was thank you. I felt the most overwhelming peace in my spirit and when I got on stage I never thought once about the words or even if I would forget them. I will never forget that. Special moments like that when you know in your heart of hearts that God gave you a specific message... just for you, like your own little text from God...they are unforgettable! The sad thing is I'm sure there have been many a "text" from God but I've either ignored them or wasn't paying attention. I pray for a listening heart so that I don't miss out on other messages He has for me... and I'm sure He has plenty! :)